2nd Last Week

I'm terrible at blogging but mostly it's because I didn't really think that people read it and I was comfortable with just mindlessly reblogging all my favourite things on Tumblr with the occasional (recently its been happening more than usual) ranting. But I think I want to do this, I've gotten addicted to this world of blogging and seeing everyone's ridiculous amounts of talents (which undoubtedly makes me feel just a wee bit jealous but aww man they are so talented). So I will start of small and just let the flow take me wherever it will take me.

Inspirations/Loves for this week:

I found a copy I guess? of that Pamela Love claw cuff here:

http://www.havealooook.com/product/cube-shaped-bangle-with-claw-bracelet

Except this one seems much more thicker and that cubical (LOL) shape bracelet seems rather amazing; also its both for USD35 which is pretty good. I am soo tempted to buy it however I have no online banking/way of transferring what little money I have.

Clean And Pristine

[credits: Tumblr]

I have no beach body; my plan to tone up in winter backfired. Blah. 

http://www.christie-nicole.com

I love this. LOVE LOVE LOVE. Next year Halloween? I really wish Australia was big on Halloween. But on a side note, I have succumbed to the world of lipstick. I love dark coloured lipstick and nudes (the sorta lips fade into your skin nude, I need to find myself a good lip concealer. Anyone care to suggest?)

Me hehe

Also I managed to snag some £1 (AUD$1.64) heels from ASOS during their SavvySunday promotion.

ASOS PROMISE Platform Court Shoe with Detachable Ankle Strap

However they were a size too big, so I'm planning to stud them in soon approaching holidays (!!!). Something like:

http://2bitchezdeep.blogspot.com/2010/02/2bd-fam-diy-tamara.html

http://www.chic-steals.com/2009/11/dont-buy-diy-christian-louboutin-for-rodarte-superspiked-heels.html

Anyways I have to go and study for my final CHEM1020 and MSTU3001 exams tomorrow. eek! I hope everyone is having a fun end of year period!

X Fi

Nothing In My Mind Makes Sense

[credits: Tumblr]

I' m pretty sure that there's no connecting theme for the above. But that's just who I am; nothing makes sense.
Right now I'm feeling sheers and lace (as usual), black and surprisingly white (I usually avoid white with a passion cause I'm scared I'll dirty it or look morbidly obese), little hints of skin and cheekiness and just simple, cleanliness in general. Does that even make sense?
And I really want a neck cuff. Thought I would just add that in. My favourite Brisbane girl crush wears it. Shes amazing. So amazing that I could dedicate a whole post to her, and more.

Namio by Dannijo [$195]

X Fi

Ombre

[credits to Tumblr]

So fuck uni hahah it is an absolute shithole but regardless it lets me see my beloved friends everyday. And today it sorta led to an spontaneous decision to ombre my hair. I recently dyed all my hair about a month or two ago to all brown and this took two hair dyes cause the first one I picked was really bad. Having asian black hair can be such a pain cause you need the blondest dye you can get and you still have to leave it for double the time or more just to get brown. And sometimes you get ranga and not brown. 

I recommend the Loreal Excellence and Superior Preference Range for a full head dye but if you want highlights or in this case ombre get the Couleur Experte - this one comes with a highlighter pack. Colourwise get a (light) ash blonde to get light brown hair; just something with ash as this offsets the orange/red of black hair.

To do the ombre I just picked a certain length of hair I wanted light and working from the ends just followed the dyeing directions. As my hair is pretty much a million different colours and I ran out of highlighter the colour change isn't too harsh, but to get the best effect I recommend a jagged length and bleaching the last 3-4cms with a lighter colour to get a complete gradient. 

Edit: I did put a photo here of my attempt, but I can't believe I even uploaded that photo. I look like shit. 

Haha, saving what little pride I have left. 

X Fi

Asos

So yesterday I returned home to find my ASOS order waiting for me. Teehee I was mega excited and just ripped through the packaging without taking photos. I had been waiting soo long for it; Australia why are you so far away. Ahaha, anyways this was basically my first ASOS order for myself; other order only consisted of a gift for my friend (visit her on http://victressvee.blogspot.com/), Barry M Wink Marker Pen Eyeliner and Barry M Lip Paint in Peach, and I am happy to say that I love everything. I ordered:

ASOS Ponti Button Through A-Line Skirt 

ASOS Amplify Punch Out Wedge Ankle Boot

ASOS Intarsia Pattern Cape 

The shoes add considerable height whilst staying comfortable and I know that this skirt is going to be my staple for this season. I can think of so many outfit combinations starring it and it's a nice neutral color. My favorite has to be the cape though, I wore it all day and it is really soft and keeps me warm. I might just name it my adult security blanket. Mumma told me not to wear it to uni though cause then I would stand out and would be forever imprinted in people's memories as the mexican/native american poncho girl. I don't really mind though, I might just live in it. 

cape ASOS; scarf, skirt and stockings Witchery; crop top Ally; Fringe Bag Korea

I apologize in advance (well... for next time and forever more) as I legit can't take outfit photos cause: 

a) my camera is shit and so i resorted to the good ole iphone 

b) I am on the opposite extreme of photogenic 

c) I lack a nice body (I don't mean to say that chubby/fat is bad but personally I would much much prefer having a skinny body on ME)
and d) I just don't understand

Maybe one day I'll be able to take decent photos... one day... In the meantime I'll just keep baking, eating and getting fat.

X fi 

My Life

[credits: tumblr]

I need an outlet.

When I first decided to start a blog, I wanted it to be about fashion but then I realized I don't really know much about fashion. I am just a common societal trend follower, not really a tumblr hot slut wearing micro shorts and crop tops but still fairly mainstream. So I didn't really have the motivation to do outfit posts or just advertise my taste//people's precious designs cause that is what I do on tumblr (click for mine), plus a lot of shit happened where I lost lots and gain bits; essentially I am trying to find myself and stop being such a convoluted self-pretentious bitch. But lately I've been anticipating... like I'm going to fall. Extremely hard. I've had my good times; everything is good with my family and my friendships have been the best in ages - I have people that I can talk to and feel comfortable in telling and not regret telling. Its only normal to have highs and lows but every single low I fall back even more and just disintegrate.

For example, I logged into Facebook for the first time in MONTHS and now I feel physically sick. I have felt like throwing up for the last hour or so, I WANT to go and stick my fingers down my throat and just rid my body of everything. It makes me sick. It doesn't help that I have a very important, life-deciding exam tomorrow as well. It suffocates me.
I think lots of people just thought I was being a hermit once more and anti-social, but really it was just me reflecting on the fact that these people wouldn't miss me at all. They wouldn't reach out to me, it was just me being stubborn or I could figure it out by myself. I had no special place in these peoples life, I was just another kid from their old high-school and honestly, it was the same for me too. I never belonged.

At this point I have to add that I have made my friends, people who literally just saved me and I am really grateful for them. I love them, really, honestly. And I am not trying to say that those people that I cut-off or don't talk to aren't my friends, its just friendship is about equal effort and they aren't giving any effort. So it isn't fair for me to cry over them.

I just have so many things I wanna express, I have so much frustration and insecurities but I don't want to be judged and pitied by those that I know. I know that many of them aren't understanding, it is a small society here.

Anyways sorry for ranting on and I know that bloggers aren't meant to write so much but consider me naive.
Thank you for listening. X

PS I hate university, especially chem practicals.